Grace

"It's an ancient love we have to let go "

"It's a fire in the rain that burns your wet toe "

"Let me have the grace to accept"

"Give him the grace to forget."

"It's a new love we have to forge"

"It's a rain in the fire that seeps within the burning gorge"

"Let me have the grace to mould again"

"Give him the grace to submit and accept"

"Hello Eve. What is this?"

"You know what this is.."

"Neither of them will really move to your beat. You know that. "

"I know, Eve. So ?"

"Prayers have a way of making everything gentle. "

"Hm. I know."

"So I am asking for grace. For him. For me. For him. For you. We all need it. "

"I am sure they don't need it or want it. They have chosen their path."

"Maybe. I can still pray that the path is gentle. "

"Why will you force them to do what you want by using prayers ?"

"I am not asking them to change. I am asking for grace within."

"Hmmm. Why?"

"So that whenever the heart breaks..it breaks right..it breaks gently"

"Pretty morbid."

"Eve, That's why we all need the grace within."

"Hm. I get it now."

"I also want to say sorry to you."

"It's ok. No big deal. No actual harm done. I am happy that you are happy. '

"Hm. Liar. Why can't you talk to me honestly.?"

"I do. What do you want to know.?"

"Just open up. Share. Feel. Live. Laugh. Cry."

"How will it help baby?"

"It will help you understand and grow up as a human."

"I am more grown up than you are. I don't need to believe in false fantasies. He still doesn't really trust or believe us."

"Er. Sigh. Ok. Don't. "

"Thank you. I need the grace within too. "

"Oh. I know. I got you. He got you too. "

"He ? You mean God or Adam."

"I will not answer. You should know the answer to this." 

"I don't need to. I have accepted the lines of destiny. I am preparing."

"Oh Lord, Give us all the grace within."

"Amen to that."

Silence

Beyond the eyes and beyond the arms 

There is a space beyond the grasp

There is no noise, there is no voice 

There is no coffin, there is no pyre 

It's just a wet quagmire 

A never ending silence

With no screams or violence 

There is no hope or desire 

Just darkness, not even cold fire 

The world becomes beautiful 

Silent without a heartbeat 

A calm chasm has no fear 

No one will come near. 

No blood, no bruise and no broken bones 

Nothing to shred, no ash, not even a smoke 

There is joy in death 

When nothing grows, nothing wilts.

"Oh! Why didn't I die earlier, Eve?"

"I am glad that you finally did." 

 

Epiphany

Dear Wise One 

Tiny crevices of the white wall. 

Sharp gate edges of the fall. 

The run without a break 

The chill without a blink. 

Screaming night. Frightened souls. 

Stuffed cupboard. Comfort in clothes. 

I held him. You held me. 

Stop carrying the cross. Share it with me.

 Angel 34. Your age. Our year. 

We are home. Nothing to fear. 

Alone. Alone. Protect. Protect. 

I am sorry. I didn't see, I didn't act. 

Alone. Alone. Connect. Connect. 

I am sorry. I don't plan to forget. 

Let's heal. Together. 

Let's live. Together. 

Let's love. Together. 

Let's fight. Together. 

Let's get old. Together. 

Let's die. Together. 

It's time to tell me that you love me. 

Your Ancient One.

Love

IN THE NAME OF LOVE He came. He conquered. He owned. IN THE NAME OF LOVE He left. He lost. He disowned. "Ok. I am incompatible." "Ofcourse. You are unworthy too."

Arms

"Hey Eve!"

"Oh! You again."

"Why are you surprised?"

"You have been talking too much this year. What's going on ?"

"Yes. Isn't it wonderful to talk?"

"No. It's not. Especially if it's you talking."

"Meh! You are so stuck up."

"Fine. What do you want to talk about ?"

"Ummm..arms."

"Arms ? Oh God. What did you do now? Did you kill someone and stole their body part?"

"Jeez. Why do you always think of blood and gore first?"

"Well..arms are not a commodity unless you mean guns They are too precious to even talk about. I thought arms were extinct now."

"Yes! Yes! I know. That's why I feel happy. I found a pair of arms by the side of the road."

Oh really? Who do they belong to?"

"They belong to me."

"Er. But you already have your own arms. You were born with them. So what did you exactly find ?"

"Ofcourse I was born with my own pair of arms. But no one saw them before. So they are worthless."

"Oh. And these new ones ?"

"The ones I found today are priceless, beautiful, strong and soft. 

They also have x-ray vision."

"I think you are on some drug. You make zero sense and you will get us royally screwed now."

"You know the drug. We both tasted it. I am already addicted."

"I refuse to be an addict."

"Why are you smiling? "

" I am not smiling!" 

CUT

"Hello Eve. Happy New Year. "

"Years are not supposed to be happy , Eve."

"Did you just cut your cut ? "

"Er. That is just so dumb."

"I think I did."

"In that case, Take the following steps for cuts and lacerations.Stop the Bleeding. Apply direct pressure on the area.Clean and Protect. Clean the area with warm water and gentle soap.."

"Oh God! That sounds like a painful treatment. I don't want to even touch the cut ..putting pressure is out of question."

"You are brave. Don't be a stubborn child. Come, Come here"

"No.Why do you have an answer for everything? It's so annoying that you don't stop."

"Because I do. Because I was there. Because I know where you belong"

"Oh, Our active pursuit of joy?" 

"Yes and No. Let's not remember the sea. I warned you. I am again warning you"

"I just want kindness. Real kindness. I am tired of the kind violence now."

"Do you not see the pattern here? The similarities ?"

"I see them. Frightening and comforting. "

"Why are you writing it here? It's too early to write about this. Maybe it's better if we don't register this."

" I asked Him to intervene. For the first time I asked. I want to remember this." 

"So? You are not ready. You are the type who cuts her cut."

" He fell into me. He spoke. And I shut my eyes for a blink to experience eternity." 

" It's all transactional.  It's all intelligent theory"

" I think it's how Angels view the world. Its karmic." 

" It's how the whimsicals view the world. It's just a coincidence." 

" You are a cynic. Ouch." 

" You are a romantic. Yikes."

"Maybe. It's a knife that will cut deep. Maybe it's a knife that will cut open and extract the poison. Maybe it's a knife that will kill me. Maybe this is what we need. Maybe this is what we need to run from. I don't care. I don't have the energy to care. Its a knife...it got through..isn't that something?" 

" Your ability to find new and unique ways to cut your self baffles me." 

"STOP it Eve."

"Eve, you STOP."

Lotus

 I ate at a basil with a twist. 

I am still hungry. 

I walked 3,000 steps. 

I am still at the same place. 

I lit a yellow vanilla candle. 

I am still in darkness. 

I smiled waking up with the cuddle. 

I still cried in the night. 

I could feel the warm glow of love in my heart 

I can still feel the coldness around. 

Eve, look..a beautiful Lotus. 

I know. They grow in murky waters. 

But lotus is worshipped by all. 

Eve, the one that should be worshipped is the one who has the courage to step into such water and want the lotus. 

Do you think someone will wade through the murky waters? 

No. Just pretend to be Titanic and sail through quitely.